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Previous Posts from Myspace

So. I was back on Myspace and looking at my blog there. I was going to delete my account on there because I'm really not on there all that much any more (waste of internet space LOL). Then I came across my blog and read through a few. I couldn't delete such great works of art...and they were just funny to read. So, I converted them to this blog with the original title, body (but with a few spelling corrections) and date.  I could change the date of the publication to match the original date but its more fun this way. They are funny to read through and remember the good old days.

Country Western Dance (03/04/09)

Hey, Hey, Hey....

So there i was (Feb 26), typing like a mad person my take home exam at 4 in the morning at the science library here at Brown. I was taking a break, looking through youtube videos, particularly AMV when i came across one of Wolfwood of Trigun tribute. I was kind of in love with him and sad when he...you know (for those that don't know, find out!). It was a good video with a good song, Smoke Rings in the Dark by Gary Allan. I must have listened to it like 7 times right after each other. Then it hit me, just as my eyes started to sting with tears, I wanted to go to a country western dance and dance to that song! wearied. a nice slow dance. yummy. lol. what's even weirder is that i still want to. lol. funny how that works out, something common back home that your not into becomes a drive when you are away. lol.

here is the video that got this all started:

What I Notice (01/29/09)

Hey all. I was talking to someone (i forgot who, sorry person who ever you are) and i came to this realization about the long war between Myspace and Facebook. I think i was trying to explain the difference between them and came up with this simple following:

Facebook is a Coffee Shop
and
Myspace is a Night Club

so, there you go. simple. they both have their uses, pro/cons, and i like using them.

Been Awhile (01/20/09)

Hey all. It's been a while (not even sure if anyone reads these but here it goes) since i posted anything. A lot of things have been happening finishing a lot of seasons (Veronica Mars seasons one and two, Bleach) but haven't been posting. Don't really feel up to it.

I got back from NM >.< and now doing my scholarly thing here at the big B. I was just thinking things through and i found that i'm not entirely sure what i'm doing. in high school it was one thing: graduate. sure, there was more to it then that but that was the most of it. now, you could say "graduate college" but there is more out there. go through all of this and then what? everyone said to wait. it will pay off. and do you know what i'm finding out?: i'm not a very patient person. i used to think driving almost an hour to the nearest town would teach me, and it did, except when up against the DMV. Now i have no idea. What is another paper? what is another thought provoking question? i do not have the answers at this time. but, school is all i know, so this is where you can find me. cheers!

Avatar: The Last Airbender (08/22/08)

That's right gang, I wasted precious hours of my life on another TV show...but guess what? I DON'T CARE! MWAHAHAHAHHA!....

I just finished watching the ENTIRE seasons of Avatar. I know I know. I said that i would stop but just can't seem to. this time i blame my sister! she got my hooked on it. Before i would knock it and laugh....oh how we grow up.
Here's the skinny for those that don't know. There are these Nations of people that can control the elements (no, love isn't one of them thank you very much Bruce Willis). You got the fire nation, earth nation, water nation and wind nation. through it all there is one person in the entire world that can control all four known as the Avatar. so one day the fire nation lord decides that he wants more of the pie and attacks the other nations. the only one that can stop him is the Avatar, but guess what, wouldn't you know it, no one can find him (All this is explained in the opening credits). and that is where Book 1 Chapter 1 begins: The Boy in the Iceberg.
Over all i liked it. hey, i wouldn't have put in all the hours if i didn't right. but this one i enjoyed to the very end. you got life a death situations, couples popping up everywhere, family issues (!), comedy, mystical powers, good laughs, and so much more. Not to mention the seasons is broken up into books (my fav.) and then the episodes into chapters (handy). Also the graphic designs are just to my liking, simple yet bold and useful.
the down side?...not all that much to it really. if you read my other reviews (or know me), you would notice i'm critical (if you haven't noticed, i might have been lazy typing the reviews). if the other reviews got an A, this one gets an A++. But don't take my word for it, there are 3 books, each with 21 chapters, find out for yourself.
http://www.animefuel.com/category/a/avatar-episodes/page/3/

Lovely Complex (07/01/08)

Great News All, I just wasted some many hours (again) procrastinating what i suppose to be doing! Yay me. hahaha. But this time i have to say it was well worth it. I finished all 26 eps. of Lovely Complex (aka Love Com). Its about the tall girl named Risa Koizumi and she falls for the shortest guy in her class who is also a somewhat best friend, Atsushi Otani. Of course, its starts out with rivals coming in and then develops into her getting up the nerve to tell him. Near the end he has his chance to admit to his feelings. Over all it was a great anime that i constantly return to watch. I have to admit most parts had me busting out laughing and ep 7 had me crying. Very emotional stuff. Hahaha. I have not had a chance to read the manga and don't think i will (i can't watch then read the book: it's too weird). Oh yeah! if you wanna get this story all wrapped up in about an hour, just go to youtube and search Lovely Complex part 1/12 and watch the live action movie. It covers all the essentials but lacks the depth that the anime presented.

Here is the link to the entire series!:
http://www.animefuel.com/category/lovely-complex/

Losing My First Year in College (04/13/08)

The first year of college is always said to be a time of change and growth. I feel have had both my first year here at Brown. I would like to take this time to thank all those who I have met here. On my first days, wither we kept in touch or not, those I see constantly yet don't converse with often, and those that I can't seem to get enough of. It has been a great year with only 4 weeks left before I'm headed home. However, the memories that I have made with these amazing people will have to carry on throughout my next year.

Those that I have formed an attachment with are leaving next year. My mentor is moving to Texas this Wednesday and I will miss her very much. Seems like we were just getting to know one another and forming a bond but now it's set to emails and phone calls. My friends in NAB are mostly seniors and going off to Grad school next year. Winnie, my partner in crime and fun-ness, is going to Australia next spring. I am very happy for each of them. I am happy for them and wish them the best, but looking at what is in store for me in the coming year, I can't help but notice how much they have always helped me. THANK YOU!! I cannot say it enough. THANK YOU! Next year is a ways off but it will come just as sure as my next breath. Just when I am comfortable, it all changes. Hahahaha. Gotta Love because Hating it does nothing.

feeling bored/depressed? (03/12/08)

Are you sad? Do you get tired? Start to wonder what you are even doing with your life? I have just the answer for you!!

Mostly, when faced with such a problem friends and family and psycologists will advise to return to a time when your were last happy. In my current case that will not apply seeing as that is what made me sad in the first place. I tried ignoring it and listening to music i liked but the feelings kept right on coming.

Thats when my hands got cold and i still had to keep going on my paper due soon. I put on my gloves and am now having a ball! (yes, that is not my normal typeos! they are typeos made with glove covered hands!!) Chicken-pecking they keyboard is amazing! (eww, that almost sounded dirty, fella) it kills your back and is slow as hell but i’m having a blast. This mway my worries are thrust/forced/cramed back and saved for a less public time when i can break down ^.^

why i was mad (02/24/08)

first, i want to thank all of those that saw my emotion icon and sent me a message. Thank you guys! it made me mad all over again but i'm starting to get over it quicker because i didn't shut it out like i usually do things!! for those i didn't tell the story to...here it goes....

its all my fault so i was really mad at myself that depicted on self loathing, sad huh? well, it started Wednesday. i just got done with long weekend (i had Monday and Tuesday off) when i didn't look at the weeks upcoming work. when i finally did on Tuesday, i noticed i had 4 papers due (mostly 5 page papers) and an exam. fast forwarding, i finished the first two Wednesday (don't ask how i did it, i still don't know), then came Thursday when i finished my third paper no problem, or so i thought. i was up until 3 or 4 trying to  finish my paper and study for my Chemistry exam. i finished my paper and dropped on my bed and fell asleep. when i woke up, i started to freak! it was 9:45 and i thought i slept though my test! i felt so stupid. but then there was no time for that because i had a class right after, so i thought. so i ran to the library, and polished up my paper and printed it. then i scurried to class. when i got there, there was nobody! so i thought "oh crap! did they change the room it was to be held in!"i sat down and pulled out my laptop to see if we got an email saying that the class was being held in another room. nada. so i text one of my friends that took the class with me. she wrote that class was to be held in the same room. i was like "What the hell?" that was when i took a minute to think. then it hit me. I WAS RUNNING AN HOUR EARLY! i had been rushing around since i got out of bed, i did not think things through. when it was 9, i was thinking like it was 10. so i had enough time to make it to my exam but didn't because i thought it was over! the stupidity i felt was so unbearable i had to go to a place where i felt calm. so i went to the  John Carter Brown library and looked at 16 century maps. i managed to sit through my noon class as if i wasn't the biggest idiot that ever lived. then it all came out when i was talking to my friend over lunch.....reliving all this in my mind, makes me feel stupid and mad all over again. one day, not today or even tomorrow, i will look back on this event and laugh...one day.

Mars (02/15/08)

just got done this morning (around 2) watching the entire 21 episodes of the (i think) Japanese or it might have been Taiwanese series "Mars". Between a college girl that has retreated into herself because of a rape by her father and a want-to-be motorcycle racer who has everyone he loves die around him (with a serious Twin-Mother-Death complex), the show wasn't entirely that bad. I mean, his best friend liked the girl first but then stepped aside so the "hero" could snatch her away. Not to mention his psycho one-night stands swearing they have a connection just to end up being his girlfriend's best friend and his best friend's girlfriend in the end. Oh yeah, did I mention the creepy kid that comes with his own creepy theme sounds? Well, there's that guy too. Was beaten a lot when he was a kid and killed his best friend just because he wanted to play good ("Pitiful creature as I have the ability to take life."-creepy guys main line). Except for the part when there is only ONE race involved in the entire series and a whole lot of life lessons, the entertainment was good, acting…alright. Overall, B- in my book.

Watch it yourself at: http://aznv.tv/en/ (streaming the best asain tv shows/movies)

Trip to Boston (02/03/08)

well, me and a friend left Providence around 12:50. we ran onto the wrong track and saw a train go around the corner away from us. we just stood there asking "was that our train!" we started to freak out and ran to the arrival/departure screen. it was the next track over. when we got to Boston, after almost missing our stop and getting nervous on the ride, we met one of our friends who is from Boston. we went to eat at this place called Charlie's Salon. when we were waiting for our table, two natives came up to us and asked what tribe we were! it was a surprise. they were sioux and the girl was attending high school at one of the private schools! my friend from Boston said that it was a really REALLY good school but expensive as hell. i think she said 50 thou year. i was going to invite them to eat with us but they looked like they were headed somewhere. so, we ate one of the best burgers i've ever had in my life! then went up and down downtown shopping. we went to this candy store and they had that viper poison. you remember those? they were sour candy that came in tubes and had a "snake" inside of the tubes?they usually come in grean (sour apple)/red (sour cherry). but this store only had the spary candy. they don't sell them on the rez anymore...at least i can't find them. then we went to the mall (huge) and shopped there. then my Boston friend dropped us off at the train stating and we came back to Providence. we were going to go ice skating but they said it would be crowded and i might get hurt, it being my first time. next time....hopefully.

Almost Lost My Phone (12/14/07)

Me and my friend were studing in her dorm room and we couldn't take looking at another word again!! so we decided to go for a walk. This was just after it had snowed, so we were walking in huge drifts of snow!..well, i was anyway. i was so happy that i was heading home in about week, i could have ran!! but it being icy and huge with snow, i did the next best thing...i went snow drift jumping!! as i was bounding though  the snow, my foot cought the buried in the snow and i fell. i was so happy, i didn't care. i picked myself up and burshed myself off and we continued to walk. later that night, after our walk and finishing our work, i was packing my things to go back to my dorm and i couldn't find my phone. i was sure i had left it on the desk before our walk. We tore the room apart looking and called it several times with her cell but still couldn't find it. she sujested that i had dropped it on our walk, but i was so sure that i hadn't taken it with me i didn't consider it. it was about 2 in the morning and i hadn't gone to sleep about 4 the pervious night so i was too tiredto care. i walked out. just to be on the safe side i retraced my steps on our walk. i got to the part where i fell and started to carefully dig. moving the snow little by little, all the while thinking "of course i would have to lose my phone, i was happy earlier!" after about 10 minutes of nothing but cold hands, i got mad. i got so mad i started to kick at the snow!! on my second kick, out flew my silver phone. i was so takenaback i just stared at it dumbly for awhil before laughing like a crazy person picking it up. good thing it was still working. it had been in the snow for about 4 hours. i quickly called my friend to tell her it was alright. still laughing, i walked back to my room, stayed up for another hour before going to sleep. over a good night, made me feel alive. too tired to care, worried about my phone and contacting my friends/family from home, and sweet elation at finding it again!! a way to feel alive!!

It Snowed...a lot! (12/13/07)

Today it started to snow. I woke up at 9...alright, alright 9:45 and went to the library. I had emailed myself the paper i need to have printed. when i got to the library (a 15 minute walk), i opened my email and it wasn't there!! i had to walk all the way back to my dorm and post it as a note on my email. i walked to the other library (5 minute walk) and ented about 11am, cloudy but okay. i stayed until about 1 working on my final paper for British Romanticism. When i walked out, there was a steady snow fall and it was already a few inches deep! i walked around for fun. it is now 7:30 and it is still snowing!! non-stop all day! it is awesome and very deep. i just came back from playing in the snow with a friend. i made a snow angel and we threw snowballs (wasn't the right kind to make a snowman). if you want to see pictures, look at the "@Brown" photoalbum. in the desert, it would snow for an hour and we would be excited but here it is piling up! hahaha. it's so cool. oh yeah, i'm headed home in 8 days!!! i just need to make it through finals.

Metallica Lullaby (07/31/07)

As Metallica sings me my lullaby
Their ignorant voices filter through my bolt-locked door
They do not know the injustice done to those who were here before them.
"Time marches on, for whom the bell tolls." 

In the past, I walk with her discussion music.
I tell her my favorite band is Metallica
She looks surprised, fooled by my preppy exterior
She comments: they have very angry music
"Forever trust in who we are and nothing else matters."

I miss the black clad figures of home
I miss the shared hurt, pain, suffering that reflect my own eyes.
I miss the unspoken bond just because of where we were born and how we were raised

Angry music

She has no ideal, cannot begin to fathom it.

Unfinished Poem (07/29/07)

see me now.
i have laid down my soul and opened my heart to your false wisdom,
rivaling only a child's first trust.

[i was walking and these lines kept repeating inside my head for some reason...]

My Naruto Review (06/29/07)

All right. I get the whole what doesn't kill you makes you stronger (or makes you want to die) but isn't it going a little too far with the Ninja scene. Ever character on that show has a demon in them or has been seriously abused as a child. What kinda village is that? It takes a village to raise a child but a freaken army to put them through all that.

I have only seen the show up to about the third season (when the Leaf Village was being attacked by the Sand Village and Sasuke was headed after Gaara). I wanted to see more but the show was all drama. I got tired of the Speed Racer episodes where everyone's face got a close up when their features resembled everyone else's.

The story was interesting. I really loved that I had not miss any episodes but after awhile it began to control my Saturdays so I had to quit for my social health. I still haven't been the same since. It really is addictive. Not just Naruto but Anime in general. Don't even get my started on Manga.

If you really look close to every character on Naruto, you'll find that their stories are really closely related. Practically the same, but what is interesting is how each person took their problem and went in a different direction then the others. Like the Gaara and Naruto; the both had a demon in them since birth, are constantly alone, never let anyone near them and social outcasts. However, Naruto still holds hope for humanity while Gaara wants to kill everything. Similar stories with different out comes.

I also like the relationships within the story. I know its mushy but I still love it. Hinata has a crush on Naruto, Sakura won't give up on Sasuke and all the others. I love that kinda drama. But the thing that sucks is that you could watch 100 episodes just to get a moment of a little time for the couples to be together. Sad, really to this romantic.

What I also hate is that the girls are practically helpless. Come on, You Are A Ninja!!! Do something besides waiting for the guys to come. My favorite character right off the bat was Sakura but then when I watched the show, she turned in to my most hated character. The only time she did anything for herself was when she supposedly "flipped out" on the last test of the exam when those three sound guys came when Naruto and Sasuke were out of commission. Even then she didn't do anything really. Just cut her hair, looked mean, bit that guys arm and got hit in the head a few times. I know you might be thinking "bet you could never do that". And you would be right. Because I'm not a Ninja and she is! Or suppose to be anyway. At least Hinata went all out even though she still got her ass kicked. In that moment, Hinata took the whole show and became my favorite. BEWARE THE QUITE ONE!

I might not have seen the rest of the show and I know alot has gone by but Naruto still holds a spot in my anime heart. Right next to Bleach and all the other kick ass shows.

Howl's Moving Castle (11/28/06)

Just saw Howl's Moving Castle on Sunday and LOVED IT!! What an amazing story! I was feeling kinda tired before it was about to show but I stayed up and it was well worth it. It felt so wonderful watching just in the first five minutes, I stated crying. Not our right bawling but a few tears slipped. When it was over, I wanted to watch it again and again but it was a one time deal on the movie channels on Dish. Studio Ghibli has made wonderful movies (My Neighbor Totaro, Sprited Away, Nausicaa, Princess Mononoke) and this movie was no different. I love Studio Ghibli films. They are an amazing combination of imagination and folk lore not to mention the graphics aren't bad either.

Extra Study Hall (11/07/06)

Bind my hands so I may not feel
Cover my eyes so I cannot see
Burn my tongue so I may not taste
Fill my nose with sulfur and
My ears with water

 I will still be free
For my soul and mind are unattainable
My dreams and faith unbreakable
I will survive Extra Study Hall

Lesson of a Moth (09/20/06)

i was talking to a moth
the other evening
he was trying to break into
an electric light bulb
and fry himself on the wires

why do you fellows
pull this stunt i asked him
because it is the coventional
thing for moths or why
if that had been an uncovered
candle instead of an electric
light bulb you would
now be a small unsightly cinder
have you no sense

plenty of it he answered
but at times we get tired
of using it
we get bored with the routine
and crave beauty
and excitement
fire is beautiful
and we know that if we get
too close it will kill us
but what does that matter
it is better to be happy
for a moment
and be burned up with beauty
than to live a long time
and be bored all the while
so we wad all our life up
into one little roll
and then we shoot the roll
that is what life is for
it is better to be a part of beauty
for one instant and then cease to
exist than to exist forever
and never be a part of beauty
our attitude toward life
is come easy go easy
we are like human beings
used to be before they became
too cilvilized to enjoy themselves

and before i could argue him
out of his philosophy
he went and immolated himself
on a patent cigar lighter
i do not agree with him
myself i would rather have
half the happiness and twice
the longevity

but at the same time i wish
there was something i wanted
as badly as he wanted to fry himself

***In Navajo tradition the moth represents crazyness. With their need to burn them selves in open flame and the way they fly in circles, it is no wonder why. It is said that if you catch a moth and hold it in you hands then you too will become like the moth and go crazy.***

Lost in Translation (06/22/06)

There is something lost in a joke when you replace the cuss word with a "clean" word. Like in the End of the World joke. Where three men are allowed one with then they jump off the cliff and get their wish but the last one says "I wish I was...", steeps in shit, says "SHIT!" and becomes shit. If you replace 'shit' with 'poop' or any other clean word then it's not the same.
Same applies with an expression. If you slam your finger in a car door and yell out "FUCK!". But if you yell out something like "Great-Goog-A-Moog-A" then it's just not the same. You don't let out all the pent up pain and anger at your ill luck.
So why can't we just allow the potty-mouths be?
Because it's not 'Lady Like'. You girls out there know what i'm talking about. Correct me if i'm wrong but wasn't 'Lady Like' sipping tea, holding a parasol, or being afraid of being unmarried at the age of sixteen? Guys refuse to be gentlemen (or at least they guys i've met and been around). Don't get me wrong, they are out there but they are rare. I believe in equal treatment, how you treat me is how i'll treat you (with a few minor exceptions). I just don't get why some words are branded 'bad.' Is it not like kids where none are born (in this case made) bad but taught (again this case meant to be) bad? Do females have more of a problem with 'potty-mouths' then males do?

She was Paid Off (06/22/06)

Today in Journalism, we were putting together bits and pieces of a broken article. The object of the exercise was to teach us what part of the article went first and to show how a article is writen. Well every one was doing that, I just sat back and let the article speak for it's self. Here was the jist:
A 22 year old College Student/Convient Store Clerk was bound and gaged while three people robbed the store. They could not get the cash register open so the took the whole thing with them. Cops finally came two hours later after a resident of the area noticed the flash lights flickering in the store when it was robbed hours before they arived. The cops did not notice the girl tied up until she made a "sweek" and an officer came to envistagate the "ruckes." She was then taken to the hospital where she said that she did not blame the comvient store owners (conviently). Then the article later said that one resident of the area was upset by the slow reaction time of the Officers. Since the store had been knocked off three times in the past six months, the resident was concerned about the responce time because what if it had been a life and death situation.
Now here is what really gets me...the girl does not blame the owners. Why? because they paid her off! What kind of college student working part time at a convient store does not blame the owners?! I would have. If the store was allowed to be knocked off more then once with a six month period, then don't you think that the owners are partially to blame. It is their responceablity to protect their works. I know she was paid generasly to say she did not blame the owners. When I expressed this concern and unvailing of a conspearacy to my fellow class mates/friends they said that "no one cared." Well, I care. I never realized how much I loved discussing things of this nature with my brother until that moment. I felt so alone at that point, that I just sat back and allowed the class to continue without my involvement.

Are you there "God"? (06/21/06)

what do we make our "god" to be? the giver of life, the all-powerful, or just a figment of our imagination? to wonder is human and we are human, well most of us. to think of the ACDC question "who made who" really puts things in preservative. to think that some guy (for i assure it was a guy) just scared the hell out of him self thinking about being alone and dying so he made up this "all-powerful" being to make him self feel better. then, surprise surprise, a thousand years latter He is ruling our lives. people thanking him for his "blessings", calling out his name in curse and ecstasy and calling on Him for a favor. well, that just stupid. what happens to our perfect little lives when we put them in the hands of another that may not even exist. but then again, religion-lost teenagers are hardly ever considered to be..."right-in-the-head."